Friday, June 30, 2006


hmmm.. beginning to lose interest in bloggin...

maybe its cos of the busy shedules, heavy workSTRESS and boring BLOGSKIN..

i m lookin around for a skin for quite sometime yet nothing attracts me...

or rather i m too lazy to be interested in any...

okii study days before for ermm.. DATABASE then headed to popeyes to study.. then

POPEYES' food is getting lousy.. the i-must-eat-when-i-go-Popeyes 'S mashpotato is horribly

soggy and the cold slaw taste like mango... how saddening...

anyway.. PROJ SUCK as usual.. i couldn't continue... it suck..

juice and timo came to stay over .. supposed to do proj.. but gahh.. we all had mental block due to DATABASE i think.. and soo TADAH all we did was eat and whine i think..

i so LACK my beauty slp.. i need it real bad but i just cant slp..

and my mum had to come into the room everytime i just happen to SLLEEEPP and wake me up!

LIFE is GETTING BORInG!!~

FOOD haTEs me i think... cos they dont seem to taste the way it suppose to..

STRESS is killing EVERYOne!!~

eyes sparkled at 10:07 PM

Monday, June 26, 2006


argh ... stress!!

when i get stressed ..

i'll get eating disorder.... i eat alot and at wierd timings like i eat lunch at 4 then dinner can be like 5 plus and i will feel like vomiting..


i'll get angry for no reason....

i'll not be able to sleep!!

i'll feel like makin myself vanish

i'll walk around my house like a zoombie........ with my hair all messed up....

i'll mix food together and eat them... like i tried kimchi with snickers bar.. .. tapioca chip with kimchi..

i'll walk around the hse lookin for sweet stuff to eat...

and all food will seem tasteless to me.. or maybe they will have funny taste like mentos will taste like peanut butter!!!!!!!!!!!

all this happened !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


FLASH 8 is totally killin me....

i m sooo stressed!!~ and i m having stiff neck... i m having headache!!`

DATABASE IS THIS THURS!!~~


eyes sparkled at 3:49 PM

Sunday, June 25, 2006


love me for who i m.. !! =)

today my mums is back heehee=)

okii she is fine.. and i worry no more =)

but i m sick again.. i dunno why i keep getting headaches..

its like numb u know when u cant feel ur head.. =(

and yeah cold sweat and i faint again.. this time i was really aone..

cos my mum was in hospital and i had to bring my sis for lessons.. and ya she was in lesson and i was alone..

but i think i was like strong enuff.. to erm get to mac before i black out totally.. and sat there for 1hr plus?? till my sis finished her lessons..

i kinda like self healed =X

cos i kept tellin myself i cannot fall.. if i do no one will bring my sis ..

and i cannot faint.. and tadah.. i self healed =x

but my frend says i m talkin rubbish but wadever.. i managed to survive and took a cab back..

and okie finally i have an off day.. =) tml my sis has no lessons and i can rest like finally!!!

but the tot of fainting is kinda scary la... i think i m too lauya... =x

lovemeforwhoiam.. =)

eyes sparkled at 12:33 AM

Friday, June 23, 2006


i m tired..

i m worrying sick..

u know when u cant concentrate on anything cos ur mind is hanging somewher..

mentos will taste like peanuts..

i dunno how the hell it happen bt i just popped a mentos into my mouth and i felt as though i was eatin peanuts.. u know when the u taste with ur brain instead of ur taste bud...

gahh.. i think i m gettin insane...

my fren said i dun look wad i m feelin as in i look carefree when i m stressed.. ya perhaps.. i din want them to worry i guess..

there is sth wrong with me now.. sth seriously wrong..

there are some words that are harder to say as u grow.. words like:

getwellsoon...
iloveyou..
youknowicare...
sorry ...
thankyou...
please...
iloveyou..
getwellsoon..

maybe sorry and thankyou is not tt hard for me.. cos i say it usually ..and i mean it..
but ya as i said these sentences are getting harder to say as years goes by...

i dunno bout other ppl.. but for mi it sure is getting harder to say...

i really hope you'll be fine.. blessyou..getwellsoon












and ya.. iloveyou..

eyes sparkled at 1:45 AM

Thursday, June 22, 2006


arghh!~

i m stressed out of a sudden.. very very stress

i wanna play yahoo pool.. but theres no one to play with me..!

i dunno since when... but this game has become some sth for me to destress..

since the last time i felt stressed someone called me to play tt game..

gahhh!!`

arghhhhhhh!!

no one play with me!!~ SAD!!~~~~~

i dunno i think i m getting mad... probably insane... i m worried.. very very worried..

someone talk to me!~ =(

eyes sparkled at 12:25 AM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006


its been days since i last blogged!

yikes... i dunno wad i have been doin .. it seems i did alot.. but nothing seems completed..

its like omg.. the projects are yuck!! totally yuck yuck!!~

arghh.. i dunno wad was i doin... sending my sis for lessons and back... its just so tiring la...

i cant slp properly... i m like havin bad headaches for days!!~

i have this sudden urge to eat laksa.. i dunno why.. i got this kinda wierd cravings..

haaha..oki.. my parents are back.. =(

i m happy tt they are back .. at the same time not.. cos .. grhh nvm..

went cycling at night at ECP the other day... had fun.. =) i wished i can go out tt late again...

its not tt late though.. but grhhh.. i cant go out!!~

okiee i think i m dying this sem... i dun freakin have the mood even to study...

exams is like this thurs ... omg.. someone hit me pls!!~

i m so tired of studyin~~~~~~~~

eyes sparkled at 1:24 AM

Thursday, June 15, 2006


tired!~

i dunno wad is wrong with me this days...

i just lose the motivation to do anything!~

ergh!!~

somebody save me!!~~~~

yikes!!~

i m too tired to move on!!!!!!!!

eyes sparkled at 11:28 PM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006


hmm..

ytd wenta school to handup the infocomm security proj...

SAW ramiaH!!~ yikeSSss!!~

he was talkin shit as usual..

then saw Rj~~ he was being dumb all day lah...

first he screwed up his btt timing ... 1030 see become 1230... then both him and tim din go...

then he took a packet of tissue frm ivy then he took one piece then threw the whole packet into the dustbin!!!~

wahahahaha!~

see everyone can be dumb! wahaha and its proven!!~

then wenta watch benchwarmers.. its a dumb show!! and its full of dirty jokes! not bad if u realli need to laugh ....

then wenta walk walk... then had sashimi sushi... =) yummy..

then i went home...

life is gettin boring this days.. when u have no where to go!~~~

eyes sparkled at 11:12 AM

Sunday, June 11, 2006


i was clearing my mails and i happen to stumble on this one.. i was feelin really bad for the past few week and long wished for some one to hit some sense into my head.. but no one really woke me from all the nonsense that i tot was unfair to me... but this mail really woke me. as in it really hit some sense back to me.. i thought it was rather meaningful and that i should share it with everyone.

A PERSPECTIVE


If we could shrink the earth's population to a village of precisely 100 people, with all the existing human ratios remaining the same, it would look something like the following:
There would be:
57 Asians
21 Europeans
4 from the Western Hemisphere, both north and south
8 Africans
52 would be female
48 would be male
70 would be non-white
30 would be white
70 would be non-Christian
30 would be Christian
89 would be heterosexual
11 would be homosexual
6 people would possess 59% of the entire world's wealth.
80 would live in substandard housing
70 would be unable to read
50 would suffer from malnutrition
1 would be near death; 1 would be near birth
1 (yes, only 1) would have a college education
1 would own a computer


When one considers our world from such a compressed perspective, the need for acceptance, understanding and education becomes glaringly apparent.

The following is also something to ponder...

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness... you are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation. You are ahead of 500 million people in the world.

If you can attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death...you are more blessed than three billion people in the world.

If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep...you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still alive and still married ... you are very rare

If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that
someone was thinking of you, and furthermore, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read at all.

Someone once said: What goes around comes around.
Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like no-one's watching.
Sing like no-one's listening. Live like it's Heaven on Earth.
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GEORGE CARLIN POST 9-11 (His wife recently died...) Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - gross and mouthy comedian of the 70's and 80's - couldwrite something so very eloquent... and so very appropriate post 9-11. "

A wonderful Message by George Carlin "

The paradox of our time in history is that ......

We have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.

We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly,
laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.

We've added years to life not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.

We conquered outer space but not inner space.

We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.

We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less.

We plan more, but accomplish less.

We've learned to rush, but not to wait.

We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion,
big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit 'delete'.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it.

A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in you mind.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctor worry about them. That is why you pay him/her.

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. " An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. -George Carlin

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BE THANKFUL

Today, upon a bus, I saw a very beautiful woman.
And wished I
were as beautiful.
When suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw
her
hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch.
But as
she
passed, she passed a smile.
Oh, God,
forgive me when I
whine.
I have two legs; the world is mine.

I
stopped to
buy some candy.
The lad who sold it
had such
charm.
I talked
with him, he seemed so glad.
If I were late,
it'd do no harm.
And as I left, he said
to me,
"I thank
you, you've been
so kind.
It's
nice to talk with folks like
you.
You see," he
said,
"I'm blind."
Oh, God, forgive me
when I whine.
I have
two eyes; the world is mine.

Later while walking
down
the street,
I saw a child I knew.
He stood and watched the
others
play,
but he did not know what
to do.
I stopped a moment
and then I
said,
"Why don't you join them
dear?"
He looked ahead
without a word.
I forgot, he couldn't hear.
Oh, God, forgive
me when I whine.
I have two ears; the world
is mine.

With
feet to take me where
I'd go.
With eyes to
see
the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear
what I'd know.
Oh,
God, forgive me when I whine.
I've been
blessed
indeed,
the world is mine.

If this poem makes
you feel thankful, just forward it to your friends.
After all, it's just a simple reminder that we have so much to be
thankful for!


eyes sparkled at 2:04 PM

Friday, June 09, 2006


leef i woh swonk eno on
...wonk lliw eno on
...dnatsrednu illw eno on
agrHHhSsss!!```
i jus seem so hard to even think of turnin back!!

eyes sparkled at 10:37 PM

Thursday, June 08, 2006


someone please enlighten me of the reasons of being good!

i fuckin dun understand wads the use of being good anymore...

i use to think that being good is everything..

it will solve all problems and it will be repaid maybe ten folds..

i fucking cant stand the noise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

someone please tell me why... tell me that wad i once believe was true..

someone please tell me ... that being good is not useless...

i hate it when u scream..

i hate it when u threaten...

i hate it when things dont go right.. or just the way it is before..

someone tell me tt i m wrong now.. tell me to turn back...

tell me that i have walk on the wrong path.. tell me that i was right before..

tell me please!!

i cant stand the noise!! i cant stand the cries... i cant stand it anymore!!

eyes sparkled at 8:30 PM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006


time is seriously a very wierd thing.. ohh well maybe its not a thing but its wierd alright!! the day before(since its past 12) i planned to actually skip 1st lecture RAD. since its like dumb! oki but i cant cos i have no valid reason for not wakin up early cos my mum will ask WHY!!! then ya so i dilly dallied.. and i left house like 920am lesson was like 10 10 am.. i was like happy cos i know i will be late and i wanna be late!! an shit when i reach city hall it was like 930..i was like gahh how am i gonna be late like tt.. so i just prayed tt the train break down or sth... but it din... i reach toa payoh it was only 945..i was damn sad!!!!!
i seriously wanted to be late !!!!! then i reach the atrium i saw 959 then i was thinkin maybe if i walk slowly it will be 10 11 .. but gahh i din know why i walked quite fast.. maybe i see to many ppl! =X
ok i m crazzyy!!

i am seriously deprived of sleep!!

i have been like sleep at 5+ am for a few days and 2+3 am yesterday!! oh god!!

i think my eye bags is gettin scary !!

i need SLEEP!!

life is so messed up!!

its getting more noisy!!

projects are all due by thursday!!

Friday there is E quiz for NETWORK TECH and PRACTICAL!!

omg i know nuts bout this subject!! YIKES how!!~

aRgHHhHHh!!~ entrepreneur proj due on thurs!!~ info comm project oso due on thurs!!~

eyes sparkled at 12:23 AM

Monday, June 05, 2006


i m tired!!~

projects are burying me!!~

i might just suffocate down there...

no matter how much we do there is still like ALOT!!~~~~~~~

ahhh!!~

so many stuff to be done!!` so little time!!~

eyes sparkled at 2:35 AM

Sunday, June 04, 2006


Random CRAP #1

sometimes i wonder...

when will things be enough..

where ther is things tt have they complain.. when they dont have it they also complain..
when they like it they complain.. they dun like it they complain.. but dont u think life is like tt.??
why is it this way?? when will things be enough?? why didn't they ultimate being up there put a stop.. or rather tell us when to stop?? sometimes i just wonder...

Random CRAP #2

ppl like me complain all the time.. tt there is not enough.. when there is like 24 hrs a day..7 days a week.. about 30 days a mth.. 365days a year...

oki.. i admit i m a procrastinator.. i just keep leaving things for the last min... but sometimes when u really wanna do it.. no one feels like it... or maybe stuff crop up.. like some time u really wanna do it but u just dunno.... i try to find out how... either theres no one there... or its like cant do =( i really tried.. but perhaps not hard enough..

Random CRAP #3

this semester.. its kind of a disaster for me i guess.. cos i cant concentrate.. cos i really dunno.. and i just let it be... i think i m gonna die like tt.. i need to try... need to buck up.. aHhhHH!~

Random CRAP #4

oki.. read some of my old frend's blog... talkin bout finding frends who actually give a damn bout them and found no one there... sometimes i feel like tt too.. but come to think of it.. who has the time to really be there for u or me.. though its like ya.. they are my friends.. but sometimes its just so hard to find them there.. its oso hard to like look for them when u are down... so u keep quiet then u feel lonely.. pls try talk it out ya.. you will feel better.. though i cant guarantee that i will be there for u ppl 24/7 but i'll try to be there ok... i cant guarantee tt i will make u smile.. but at least if u cry i'll cry with you..i cant guarantee that i will know how to solve ur problems or give good advice..but i'll listen.. if someone bullies u ...i cant promise tt he/she will have their retribution.. but at least i will scold him or her with u.. so please look for me yeah.. i'll be there...

i'll try to be there i promise =)

eyes sparkled at 4:25 AM

Thursday, June 01, 2006


ahhhh!!

projects are piling!!~

omg i feel the stress now!!~

sharks!!~~~~~

i m bloody screwed up!!!~~

i m getting sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yikes!!!

eyes sparkled at 1:05 AM

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